Day 18: Don't Quit
Happy (late) Day 18 of Another 100 Days of Hannah, y'all!
This post brought to you by a full day of work on the other side of the state, followed by charting, dinner, a workout, and organ.
First things first: y'all - can we just be amazed for a moment at how much can be accomplished in a mere 30 minutes?
After failing at practicing organ for a couple of weeks (sorry, Aunt L!), I finally decided to try to get myself into a daily routine of practicing for at least 30 minutes - long enough to actually accomplish something, while short enough to not drive my OCD self crazy thinking about sitting any longer, especially on long drive days. Being used to 2-3 hour practice sessions, I was skeptical of my plan, but after practicing this evening, I am more than pleasantly surprised.
In just 30 minutes, I was able to run through six songs at least once, if not twice a piece, while troubleshooting a few problem spots.
Do any of you guys feel like you're always just running in circles in life?
I guess some context would be helpful here...
Most of the days in this past week have felt like I'm just sitting and spinning. Every day is the same challenges, over and over again.
I struggle with anxiety.
I struggle with dealing with emotions.
I struggle with handling conflict.
I struggle with self-worth.
And, admittedly, it gets frustrating.
Because, no matter how often I come to the same conclusions on how to respond to situations, I still struggle with them.
It's like I'm stuck in a movie that's on repeat.
Or, like I'm lost on a trip, and I keep driving past the same road sign, but can never find my way in the right direction.
Some days, it's easy to wonder if I'm ever gonna get there.
If I'm ever going to be better than I am today.
If I'm ever going to past the struggles that I'm facing here and now.
And when that happens?
It's really easy to want to throw in the towel.
To say, "I quit. I'm done working on this, because I'll never get to being the person I want to be."
But, just as I'm ready to give it all up, I'm reminded of Paul's words in Phillipians:
Being confident of this: that He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion in the day of Christ Jesus. (1:6)
And then in Hebrews:
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders, and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and the finisher of our faith. Who, for the joy that was set before Him, endured the cross, despising it's shame, and sat down at the thrown of God. (12:1-2)
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful. (10:23)
Y'all, He who promised is faithful.
He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion.
I know it's tempting, but don't quit now.
Song of the Day: Faithfulness - Matt Maher
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